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January 16, 2008

Whirlwind of Destiny

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , — noenam @ 9:11 am

I used to have a long distance relationship with a beautiful bitch girl and her name is lets say Nadia and she is the sister of my good mate Anton. I think of her as very intelligent young lady. I am living in Australia and she lives in Indonesia. Things went really well. Her family was very nice to me and she cared about me and her brother was on our backs all the time but then we broke up after 10 months. She then disappear without any contacts or what so ever. I missed her but yet she kept silent. I used to think of her for months. I tried to talk but no reply. I was feeling down and distress at times. I thought that I just lost my faith towards relationship and this is the end. After couple of months I could not stop thinking about her but is she thinking about me? I do not know and I do not want to know the answer.

After several months being lonely and single. I heard a news that Anton had just broken up with his girl. He had been in a relationship with a girl for about 4 years and 2 months. I had known Anton for about 5 years now. I know all the stories about their relationship. I know for a fact that their relationship had many downs rather than ups. They had a long distance relationship whereas Anton was in Malaysia and his girl was and still in Jakarta. Anton then found out that the girl had had another guy in Jakarta. I was dumbstruck to find this. I could not believe this was happening. I always thought that Anton and this girl will married. I question to the world that this is unfair. Anton is good guy. He is decent and truthful.

I asked Anton whether he is okay but he said that he did not want to talk about it in the near future.

After a month I asked Anton about his status . He said that he is okay. He has been focusing with his studies and work. He said that he was very busy and focusing his every energy to go forward. I asked whether he is sad or down. He then said:

“iQbaL, whether you are feeling down or like a superman that is up to you but me? I picked myself up. I would not lie. I still think of her at most of the times. We had so many memories together. So many things that we had done. I am for what I am. I need to focus with my life.”

These strong words really switch my motivation button to ON! I can not believe how brave Anton is. Truthfully, I can not believe that Anton has some strong and wise words up in his sleeves. He had just been dump from a girl that share his part of his life for 4 years and 2 months. He had just been fooled that his girl had another guy.


Seriousl, Anton! Thanks for your words. It really picked me up when I am falling down.

Ever since I broke up with Nadia. I am what you called Mr. Negativity. I got scared getting into more deeper attachment with a girl. I kept on thinking that girls are evil. I kept thinking that no one even come close Nadia. Oh yes! That was me.

After a while, I kept on thinking that my life was not that miserable. I was myself that made me suffer like this. I became somewhat Mr. Positivity. I became enjoy with my life. I cherish every moment of my life.

Then suddenly, I met a girl in myspace. I know it is cheeky but shut up! Her name is Tissa Kemala. She is the most gorgeous girl that I have met. At first, I thought that she was just like any other girls but then I realised that I was wrong. Oh so very wrong. She made me very relax and I can be myself. It made me curious with her. I got to know her more deeply. I realised that she is funny, cute, fun, easy to talk to, sexy and very pretty. She becomes very pretty every day. I notice that I want something more than just being friends with her. I want to be the one who make her laugh. I want to be the one who catch her when she is falling down. I want to be with her. I want to make her smile. I want to tell her stories. I want to be ‘something’ with her. I love you, my hunny bunny boo.

I want to thank Raditya Sjahbana as the real name of Anton coz without you I would never have the energy and soul to be with Tissa

I also want to thank Tissa coz you are always there for me. Aku sayang kamu.


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